Archive for October, 2009

*sigh*

Hmmm, this day didn’t turn out as I’d hoped.
Have done minimal study and instead my thought life has become too cluttered.
The day was supposed to be a happy and productive one… I guess it still can be… I’m hoping that once I vent here I will be released.
Why do I do this to myself?
Why am I questioning [...]

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1st Blog-O-Versary :)

I did it.
I made it.
Well technically, I will have by 4:22pm today.   In 7 hours it will have been 365 days since  my very first post here.
Looking back at where it all began, I have written on pretty much all the topics I initially stated and the journey has been amazing.
I made my first regular email penpal [...]

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after the rain.

It was the heavy drumming of the rain drops on the roof that eventually got me out of bed today.
I looked out my window to see a gray and gloomy sight yet my heart was happy :)
I hope Scottie found shelter under some bushes or in his doghouse.
I was amazed at how the rain was coming down [...]

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self-evaluation.

things I noticed about myself today….
I need to learn to relax my jaw… been clenching my teeth again >.<
I seem to cross my arms a fair bit… they say that it is a defensive or self-comforting posture “used most unconsciously to alleviate nervous tension”.
I say “if you know what I mean” an awful lot without [...]

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point of grace indeed.

Love shuffle on my ipod :)
Interestingly, I found different lyrics to the ones that was playing when I first typed the title and artist into Google…*shrugs* so the first set of lyrics are the words that are filling the morning air as my toes are losing their feeling…. and then the second set is just another set of [...]

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add oil!

I think every word that I’ve wanted to say has been said.  It’s all out of my system now and it’s brought such relief.
I’ve reread the emails, the messages, the IMs to death and know for sure that what happened did actually take place.
It’s not a dream that I’m going to wake up from.
I’m still in [...]

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rosy tint.

I don’t know if this is the time and place to say such words but oh well, I feel I must record them down somehow anyway…
It’s funny how the world is unexpectantly seen through a filter when certain emotions bubble up.
There was a rosy tint to my surroundings as I trammed into uni today.  Maybe it [...]

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shaken.

You’ve shaken me up,
I can’t think straight.
How did I get here?
I don’t remember hopping on this train
But somehow, the thoughts invade my mind again.
I’m scared of what’s in store.
I need Him to hold my hand and lead me to where I’m meant to go…
Who would have thought a year past, this is where we’d be now.
I [...]

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monday morning mayhem.

Vaccummed the house, cleaned the toilet, wiped the bathroom bench, cleared the tables, sprawled out the beanbags, dusted the piano, pulled out the chairs, set up the footstool, removed the polish, cut the nails…. all for my lil 5 year old :)
Alot to do before 10am after only 5hrs sleep lol
Oh well, on the upside, I [...]

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not my time yet.

During the break today I found Dr. Kumar somehow discussing a topic with the chickas that seems to have been popping up all weekend and I was delighted that he gave his views in point-form (makes it easier for my forgetful brain to remember)…. however, by the end of the following session, I was already racking [...]

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