Hmmm, this day didn’t turn out as I’d hoped.
Have done minimal study and instead my thought life has become too cluttered.
The day was supposed to be a happy and productive one… I guess it still can be… I’m hoping that once I vent here I will be released.
Why do I do this to myself?
Why am I questioning things that have nothing to do with me?
Why can’t I mind my own business?
I’m disappointed that I’ve let my feelings rule my head… I’m used to being in control of them or at least being able to set them aside so that I could finish what needed to be done.
Maybe this is a test in itself. I was calmer earlier this morning (meaning at 2:30am!) and thought everything was crystal clear… but I guess not. Actually now I think I’ve been pulled back to reality a bit which is a good thing. I do need to think more clearly and carefully. At first, I thought I could, then I thought there’s no way….but now I’m back to where I was before. *sigh*
I don’t want to be cold and distance, that would be unfair and painful. But can someone show me where that invisible line is?
Can we find some middle ground?
That walk outside in the swealtering heat didn’t really help. I became sweaty and dehydrated the moment I got to the corner.
I hate not knowing what to do….ah, there it is. I’ve found the key. I haven’t really prayed in earnest about it all. Hmmm.
Perhaps, that’s where it’s been mucked up. Sorry, Lord. *sigh* I know you want the very best for me, yet you are probably shaking your head at all the mishaps I’ve unnecessarily put myself through lol
*double sigh* It feels better now that there is a course of action to be taken.
It’s back to being slow and steady :) Let’s not jump the gun, you only get disqualified in the end. They say that things end the way they start.
Let’s be BFFs… best friends forever :)
This is one of those times that I know I will look back on in years to come because of its significance, and I hope I can look back at them with fondness rather than bitterness.
What a whirlwind of a week :) I’ve been confused, conflicted, distraught and frustrated. I’ve smiled, I’ve laughed, I’ve cried.
And it doesn’t excuse the fact that exams exams exams exams are SOOOOO close *sigh*
Still 6 hours of this day to go… let’s make the most of it :)
Quote of the post: So much has been given to me, I have no time to ponder over that which has been denied. - Helen Keller
Song of the post: Average Girl - BarlowGirl
♥ a.
P.S. great timing ;)
[extra addition at 9pm]
*happy sigh* It feels like a weight has been lifted. So relieved. Thank God. I’m at that happy place again :)
