writings

 5th January 2009

no music to this yet… more just random thoughts jumbled together in no particular order from convos with friends :P

The Crush

-         Amy Nhan  (01.01.09)

 

It feels like I’m falling for you

I catch myself smiling when I think of you/when you cross my mind

When you walk into view my heart beats a bit faster

 

Is it silly to dream of what might be?

Let go and be a little crazy? Maybe….

 

When a message comes, I hope it is you

I hold my breath when I pick up the phone, hoping it’s your voice on the other end

How did I get here?

You creep into my thoughts, I try to shut you out but you invade anyway

 

Would it be ok to open my heart again for the possibility of something new?

My past hurt tells me to be careful but can I trust you?

 

Should I stop and give you the time of day or just turn around and walk away?

 

If this is a crush, I don’t know if I could take the real thing when it happens…

 

 ♥ a.

30.11.08

ok here is one that has been simmering on the back burner for a while… started some time in 2006 so about 2 years ago… I most always start with lyrics first when it comes to my songwriting… tried to put a melody to this one but nothing really sticks yet…

so if anyone can put a melody or chords to it, let me know as I welcome suggestions :) my songs used to be so sacred to me that I wouldn’t show anyone but nowadays, I’m learning to appreciate and accept some help here and there ^^

so here goes… 2nd installment

 

 

Free Fall

-         Amy Nhan (2006)

 

V1

Feels like I’m spinning out of control

Losing my grip on my reality

I keep banging my head against the wall

It’s like I’m in free fall

 

Where can I run to?

Who can I turn to?

 

V2

My world is sliding through my hands

Nothings is following my plan

Why is it that everything I do

Always seems to fall through

 

Where can I run to?

Who can I turn to?

 

Chorus

Who brings out the stars at night

Who gives us the sunshine

If only I could grab a hold of the One

Who gave me life

I know it will be alright

 

TAG:

Coz He said, “Come I will give you rest,”

He said, “I have all you need if you would just release – it all.”

 

 ♥ a.

 

 

hey all, decided I’m going to start posting the lyrics to songs that I’ve written/in the process of writing and also any other stories, poems or other sparks of creativity… so here’s the first installment :)

 

Story of a Girl

-  Amy Nhan (began 07.05.07/revisited 24.11.08)

 

 

Life was good and she was stronger than she looked

She had to endure it all with a smile

If not for herself, for the ones she loved.

Through troubles and fights, she held on tight

Just to make it through the night,

To face another morning.

 

But there came a time when she could take no more

The words cut her and went far too deep,

Further than any stick or stone

She thought she’d let it all go, “It would be easier this way,

At least it would make the pain go away

I can’t live this life anymore.”

 

Searching for the thing that could end it then and there,

She turned, and saw him before she dropped to her knees

He looked at her, and she at him,

No words could fully describe

How vulnerable she felt inside

The cry for help that griped her heart.

 

“What’s wrong?” he said as he knelt down beside her

“I’ve been looking for you, but you kept running away.”

She could not find the words to explain

She had wanted independence, a life of her own

In spite of the love that was shown

Back then it felt too suffocating.

 

“It’s alright, don’t be afraid.  I’m here,” he said

Wrapping his arms around her, he drew her near.

“Don’t you see?  You were never meant to do this alone.

I promised I would look after you and I will,

I will bring you joy anew and help you fulfil

Your dreams and your destiny.”

 

A glimmer of hope, a chance for a new start

“This is too good to be true,” she thought, “There must be a catch,

“Nothing in this world is ever for free.”

As if he read her mind, he smiled as if to say,

‘I can’t wait for you to see the day,

When it all falls into place again.’

 

“No matter how long it takes,” he said gently.

“I will walk this road with you; just trust me that’s all I ask.

But you must decide this for yourself.”

“If you are not ready, I’ll wait for you,

No matter what you chose to do,

Please know I will never stop loving you.”

 

His declaration brought large tears to her eyes

What did she do to deserve this?

Did he not know how she’d cursed him the day she left?

All the things she had done to spite him

Each night when the streetlights went dim

She would ‘thank god’ he was in her past.

 

Yet he loved her still after all this time gone,

His devotion never wavered, not even for a moment.

She looked into his eyes and saw love like no other

A father’s love and the hope of a new life

Even through the heartache and strife

He never gave up on her.

 

As she stood up, slowly wiping the tears away

She whispered, “I’m so sorry, please forgive me.

“I wanted to live my life my way… like they all told me to.

But I see now, you wanted the best for me

To give me an abundant life and all for free

Can we start over again?”

 

The father and his daughter embraced that day

A breath of fresh air, a new chapter in her book

She knew the years had been hard on him

But she promised to live a life worthy of her namesake

And regardless of the mistakes she knew she’d make

He would never stop loving her.

 

That’s all she needed to know.

 ♥ a.